Precise very moments

At this precise very moment, all seems so incredibly awesome, life is beyond blissful. In fact, the only thing wrong with this precise very moment is my knowledge that it will be so fleeting. Knowing that this too shall pass and that this precise very moment will have an infinite ending is the only thing wrong with this precise very moment.

Every time I type the words precise very moment I brain has a bit of a giggle because in my mind I mean a split second instant that can both be over in a flash or last much longer than expected.

My current moment involves laying on the trampoline typing this out. Just before I started I lay with my closed and let my whole body relax. As I deeply inhaled I could feel the oxygen filling my lungs before being dispersed through my entire being.

Silence surrounded my ears with only the faintest of noise being brought to me by through the rustling of leaves by the wind. Bringing with it the distant sounds of melodic bird chatters and children at school making the most of the dying minutes of playtime.

Only it can all be shattered in micro seconds. It is the anticipation of that shattering that moment that ruins the current one.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppp

And now the moment is over.

The wind has suddenly taken a chill and now brings with a chorus of yapping dogs. All sad and alone sitting in their back gardens longing for someone to throw them a ball. If not that they are small and yapping to be let outside so they can go and do their business. Either way, they ruin the tranquility of my precise very moment.

And that makes me a bit sad.

Not nearly as sad as what the real destruction of my precise very moment does though. One that comes at the precise very moment the washing machine cycle ends and it begins with its' incessant beeping at random intervals until you get up and press the off button.

So much sighing.

A new deck and some lovely messages

If you are a regular follower of my antics over at A Parenting Life you will have heard me rabbiting on about my birthday last week. One of the things I have so far failed to mention about it though was that I treated myself to a new deck of Tarot Cards.

Still sticking with Doreen Virtue (because she is all kinds of amazing and awesome) these are her Angel Tarot Cards, as seen below.

Image taken from here
because I was too lazy to get up and take my own
on account of it being well past stupid o'clock as
I write this. 

I did my first reading from it last week, as the clocked ticked over to begin the celebrations of my thirty sixth birthday. Sadly however I was also busy at the time writing this reflection on the difference a year can make and never got to share what the Angels had to say to me.

What is even sadder is that it has taken a week for me to actually make the time to get it out. On the upside though at least it is better late than never.

While I did take a photo of the cards at the time, it somehow seems to have disappeared and my poor little legs refuse to get up unless I am making my way to bed. Which I do not want to do until this post is done and dusted.

Lucky for me though I left the four cards I pulled at the top of the deck so while I can not show you them I can tell you about each one.

The first was the King of Air, Brilliant, Impartial, Professional, Diplomatic. Speak your mind with confidence. Seek out professional advice. Balance mental and emotional considerations.

At the time I didn't really know what to make of it, and maybe I still don't really, though I can't help but wonder if it is related to my Lovely. She is testing and trying waters in ways that go beyond rocking the boat. In nearly thirteen years of being a mother I have never been so unsure of what to do with a child.

Last week I asked one of her teachers if she could come on board and lend a hand for a little bit. They have a good rapport and since Lovely goes into shut down mode the moment my mouth even looks like opening I need to find someone with who she will communicate.

The next card was the Queen of Air, Independent, Experienced, Realistic, Witty.  Objective decision making. Clearing away all that no longer serves you. Seeing the humour in a situation.

Again I was not too sure of what to make of her. I found it comforting to get both a King and Queen, though perhaps it was more a case of the new cards sticking together and not being shuffled properly?

The guidebook that came with the cards seems to give less guidance than my other decks and books but perhaps that is a good thing and it will prove to be an opportunity for me to get more in touch with the Angels themselves rather than relying so much on the book. Having said that though this line resonates quite loudly with me it is time to remove anything or anyone from your life whose presence no longer serves your greatest good.

There are a few people who I feel rather abandoned by of late and I was already coming to terms with the fact that our paths had gone separate ways so perhaps this is just confirmation of that.

The third card that come out was the Archangel Jeremiel. Renewal.  Review, and evaluate. A favourable assessment of the facts. Time to move in a new direction.

This card probably spoke louder to me than the others. It was confirmation that the whole study and work thing was a good idea and I was headed in the right direction, renewing a zest for learning and productivity I hadn't even realised had died.

The final card was the King of Earth. Generous, Professional, Responsible, Practical. A successful time. Confidently accept opportunities you're offered. The Midas touch.

Again this card felt like it was just confirmation that all I am doing is right and to maintain my faith that good things will continue to fall into place as I need. Which was kind of lovely I must say.

It makes me a little sad to think that it has been a whole week between getting the cards out, though before then I can't even remember when I last did so I guess a week is not too bad. Finding a quite moment or two to gather my thoughts and be with the cards is far from easy some days. This whole part time working and studying is so much more intense than I remembered.

I just shuffled the cards now, enjoying the solitude that can only be found at nearly three o'clock in the morning. As I did so three cards jumped out and fell to the floor. Which if you are new here is my way of knowing what cards are meant for me.

The cards were The Sun - Archangel Uriel, King of Fire, The Chariot - Archangel Metatron.

All with clear messages that my study is the right thing to do, even if I feel a little overwhelmed by the fact I have let a few weeks slide. There is still time to catch back up and stay on top of it all. I just need to try.

And on that note I am off to bed for hopefully some sweeter than sweet dreams.

The procrastinator in me said now was a good time to write

The other day I pulled a few fairy cards. In fact it was probably even longer than the other day, some time last week I suppose, not that it really matters. I never got around to actually writing the post to go with the reading though. And since I am supposed to be walking out the door to go and have a coffee and crochet date with a bunch of women I don't know now seems like the perfect time to try and spit something out.

Ok so maybe now isn't the greatest time to get this out. Getting the silly photos to upload took longer than it should have on account of all the rain last night which appears to have washed straight into my phone line. The joys of living in the tropics.

I don't really have time right now to go into all the details of each card. Which is a little sucky but it feels nice to not have this post hanging over my head anymore. Regardless of how dodgy it is.

I know that at the time the cards all spoke deeply to me though. Especially the letting go card. There are a couple of really ridiculous fears that I am holding on to at the moment. So ridiculous I can't even bring myself to say it (or even write it for that matter) out loud. What makes it even more ridiculous is that I could go and take some steps to alleviate my fears. Of course that means kind of facing them at the same time, which is why I haven't but I will. Promise.

Thankful for Archangel Raphael

In the short time since I revived posting here a few of the Archangels have stood out more than the others. One of which I feel I owe a rather large amount of thanks to.

image found here
there is also some great
info on Raphael there

Last week Zany was unfortunately involved in an incident with our dog. The incident resulted in two small puncture wounds in Zany's left hand. We decided to try our luck with our regular local clinic. They have a walk in section and it seemed much more appealing that the emergency room at the hospital. After all as traumatic as it was it was not really an emergency as such.

Once the antiseptic had been poured on and the prescription for antibiotics written we were happily on our way. And when I say happily I mean we had the bejeezers scared out of us by the doctor and his constant reminder of the risk of infection.

As much as I know the benefits of modern medicine at times I couldn't help but want to be on the safe side and ask the Angels for a bit of extra healing help.

Thanks to me having pulled a few Archangel Raphael cards of late I knew that if I asked him specifically to help with Zany's hand healing my chances of being heard were even greater.

A week after the incident and you can barely tell there was ever anything there. I am stunned at how well and the speed at which this has healed. I have no doubt that  Raphael played a helping hand in this. And for that I am super grateful.

I am also thankful for the knowledge of which Angel I needed most for healing. For as long as I may have believed and known that there are greater forces than what the eye can see at work in life it is only recently I have taken the time to get to know a little more about them.

Joining in with #thankfulthursday over at A Parenting Life

Power and Discovery

I sat down last night to write this post. Carefully trying to not berate myself for not having been here for a few days. My original intentions were to post every day. But then that is always my original intention when it comes to blogging.

Anyway, despite the house being quieter than a mouse I just couldn't find it in me to get any further than opening the appropriate tab and getting everything ready for me to write. I couldn't even decide which deck of cards I wanted to use.

Instead I opted for mindless minutes wasted over at Candy Crush while trying to come up with just the right words for a friends upcoming fiftieth. Which I didn't managed to do until about two minutes ago.

One could be mistaken for expecting something truly wonderful given the delay. Sadly though my heartfelt message was probably on the side of ordinary. I put far too much pressure on myself sometimes and simply end up caving under the weight of it all. This was most definitely one of those times. I will comfort myself with the at least it is something notion.

But as always I digress, back to the cards.

Today's cards are Power and Discovery. I did take photos of them and have spent a good twenty minutes trying to work out why they haven't been included to the computer's photo stream so I can pop them in here. Total first world problem I know, but now you have to imagine the card image.

Power 

Card image is of the Angel stroking a lion with a golden eagle sceptre in hand

(Archangel Micheal)

I am energised by the power of universal love

From the book

True power is grounded in spiritual awareness.

It is to do with trusting your inner wisdom, standing your ground and speaking your truth

The Angel of Power counsels you to use your power with love.

Do not impose your power on others, yet do not give it away either.

Ask the Angel to help you to say "no" to anything that is wrong for you

Photo found here, on a post dated with my birthday!

Discovery

Card image is of an Angel at the bottom of some stairs, map in hand, looking to the distance

(Archangel Raphael)

My life is a wonderful journey of discovery

From the book

Regardless of age or level of knowledge, making discoveries about yourself

and the world can awaken your sense of awe and wonder at the universe.

The Angel of Discovery encourages you to keep your mind open 

to fresh information and experience at all times.

Call on her to enhance your senses so that your sight becomes clearer, 

and your hearing sharper.

Ask her to show you how to act in a more loving an conscious way, 

to benefit yourself and the environment.

In this way, you will enrich your soul and climb to new heights of inspiration.

Interestingly enough the Discovery card came out the other day as well. I am guessing I need to pay it a little more attention.

Archangels Michael, Raphael and Uriel

So yesterday, when I had the brilliant realisation to bring this little space back to life it was after I had spent some time with my angel cards. Which just between you and me I haven't been doing nearly enough of lately. It felt nice shuffling the cards waiting for one to jump on out.

Rather than pull actual cards from the deck I tend to just shuffle until a card falls from the deck. Possibly not how a real angel card reader would do it but it works for me and at the end of the day that is all that really matters. Usually I only shuffle through the deck a few times before a card jumps out at me. As it always feels like the message I am meant to receive I will just keep on going about it this way for now.

So what cards jumped out at me yesterday?

Archangel Raphael, New Beginnings & Discovery

I open myself to the possibilities of new beginnings

My life is a wonderful journey of discovery

Archangel Michael, Freedom & Strength

I am strengthened by the power of unlimited love

I choose to be free, to be my true Self

Archangel Uriel, Harmony

When my mind, body and soul are in harmony, I am at one with the universe

As you can see from the new beginning card, it is no wonder that I felt the urge to restart up the fairy garden. Not technically a new beginning in some ways because it is a resurrection of sorts but still I am beginning. Though after having a little read about the Angel of New Beginnings there is probably a little more that she meant for me.

It says in the book to take a fresh look are some part of your life and making space for the new. Which means letting go of yesterday with gratitude. That part is easy enough for me. The part about clearing spaces of clutter and tidying your work and home space, not so easy but most certainly in need of doing.

According to the book, the Angel of Discovery encourages you to keep your mind open to fresh information and experiences at all times. Definitely something that I need to work on. At times I think I may close my mind to many opportunities.

Monday saw me putting Lovely on a plane to go and spend time with her other family during the Christmas period. She will return to me in the final two weeks of the holidays a bundle of worn out emotions as she tries to grasp what it is like having two different families. Strength is something I need abundance of during this time. As much as she may torment her younger sisters at times they feel lost without her. All the strength I have gets sent to them to help them get through.

The Angel of Freedom can be asked for the courage to follow your heart, to break free from restrictions and soar high and act out of love. Again just what I need to help me over the next few weeks.

And finally the Angel of Harmony. Who really just ties all of this together. Because when harmony is present life will just seem to take care of itself. Well so I tend to think.

Normally I feel I have enough after three cards however yesterday it felt so wonderful holding the cards, freeing my mind while I shuffled that I just didn't want to put them down.

Actually even as I am typing this out I felt the urge to have a quick shuffle. Archangel Uriel sent me the Angel of Humility. Archangel Uriel is meant to help us awaken our ability to realise that we have the power to shape our own reality. Something I need reminding of far too often I think.

I gladly play my small but valuable role in the universal pattern of life

The Angel of Humility is there to help us remember that we are all important and have important roles in life to play but we mustn't let our ego get in the way and we must remember that others are just as important, sometimes more so than ourselves.

For now though there is a mountain of washing that must be seen to, if only angels and fairies could take care of that!

Why hello there

It kinda feels a little funny here. You know on account of it being like forever since I wrote here. For reasons that I am unable to recall I decided to take this little space offline for a bit. Or perhaps a lot given it was well over a year ago, either way I am here now. And while it does feel a little funny it also feels a whole lot of nice and like it is meant to be.

So I guess we will just wait and see...

These are the cards that jumped out at at me the other day.
I was talking to the angels regarding a friend
undergoing some major surgery.
She had given me the deck of cards for Christmas
the year before. I knew they would have some comfort for her
and I was right.

Anyways the main reason I have decided to return here is to share some of the messages that I get from my angel and fairy cards. I have taken to using them a little more regularly which is all kinds of lovely. However we all know how completely absent minded I can be so as to not forget these important messages being sent for me to receive I thought I could keep track of them here.

Over at APL I have lovely reader and fellow blogger Jasmine, who has somewhat encouraged, perhaps without even realising my desire in sharing more of how the fairies are a part of my life. Though after being asked Why I believe in fairies? I became even more certain of the need for me to open myself up even more.

We are going away on the adventure of a life time in the middle of next year and it would be more than great to get a little help with a few of the details. In the past, whenever I need help with little things in life I ask for help. It might not always come as I expect, hope or want, but nine times out of ten, possibly even more, I get the help that I need. Which at the end of the day is all anyone can hope or ask for.

So this is me.

Putting myself out to the universe, fairies, angels and who ever else can lend a hand.

I don't expect a free ride, I know there will be work to do, and by George work I'll do.

I just need a little help and guidance in finding the way.